I still clearly remember how we met in a conference that our company held. We didn't know each other due to different lines of work. I only knew your name from my friend who happened to be your friend also.
I don't know if fate interfered. The management were formed us into one group which gave us time to know better and much closer. I still remember, when we were having a coffee break, one of your teammate asked me what my type of guy is. I quickly replied, "Of course, I want him to be hard working, thoughtful and he has sense of humor. It should be with same age or at least five years older than me but not ten years ahead of me". Then I noticed all of your teammates stared at you. We never knew that time that your teammates were planning and playing cupid on us. We didn't know who gave them the idea! Why? Because I have love plan that time! And that is to make my long waited crush to fall for me. But it was not you!
Fate interfered again. Or is it your younger brother and teammates again? We were given a tasked to cook for them, to create a mini proposal project. I hate what peers (our bosses, colleagues and friends) were doing. They're all keeping their eyes on us, seriously watching us. I knew it so I planned my counter attack. My childish thing arose, I gave you a plastic toy cockroach coz I heard you are totally scared of it! And voila! I scared you to death! Ha-ha-ha. You even had a nightmare, you dreamt of me holding the cockroach while chasing you! That was made you get mad at me.
Our bosses interfered again. We were given a project that we would work for seven months together!
To make the story short, we started to know each other better. Oy! Your funny jokes were not somewhat corny with your matching heartily laugh. You also never forgot to bring or cook delicious food for me especially at night when I didn’t have the time to prepare it myself. And on my birthday, you sang my favorite song while playing the guitar (you're not really prepared, huh!) Wow! I never realized I started to like you. After four months, we mutually agreed to build a serious relationship. You became more thoughtful and loving boyfriend and bestfriend as ever.
Then one day, I secretly asked my boss to transfer me to another project because I wanted a more challenging one and pursued my own career. I knew you never liked the idea but then you tried hard to understand me. You let me do the things I wanted to do even if it would cost our separation.
After four months of exchanging letters and chatting via internet, we did get a chance to meet again. We planned to introduce our relationship to our families.
We were supposed to meet in Manila but never happened. And will never be happened again. I got a call from my boss that you're totally gone. You had a car accident on the way to our meeting place. I felt my heart shattered into pieces, felt numb, thinking that it was just a nightmare!
It's been four years, but still the feelings are still the same. You never knew that during the time when were not seeing each other I had a stick pad always with me and every time I think of something to share with you, I quickly wrote it. I told myself I would give all my small notes (be it senseless or what) the next time we meet. You never knew how much I missed you and am still missing you.
I was surprise when your sister in law told me that you already informed your parents that you were planning to get married and were planning a marriage proposal to me.
You never knew the feeling of opening your eyes every morning and trying to find a hundred reasons to live and breathe.
I was hoping that it was you who wiped my tears and touched my hair when I was crying at night. Or was it just a dream? But I knew it was you.
There were times I asked God why this should be happened. Why is it that my love is not enough for you to stay with me? Until now, I couldn't find an answer. My friends kept telling me that maybe there's a better and right guy for me. But how could I choose a better guy when I finally found the best in you?
I knew you're not happy with what you're seeing right now. Believe me, I'm trying very hard to be happy everyday because I know this is what you want and what I want, too. However, I know you're proud of me because I am brave enough to face the challenges of life. I will never disappoint you, my dear. Though, there were times when I want to give up but I know that there's life ahead of me, that you will never give up (on your own way)on finding and making me happy.
Maybe God has a best plan for me. I don't know yet but I know he has coz I know He wants me to be happy, too.
A message from my bestfriend:
They say people come and go...
But the truth is...
No one really disappears from your life...
People never really leave...
Their roles just change.
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