being single

Do I have to announce this to the world? Well, the reality slaps on my face that I'm still single. Though all my friends know that I'm not looking for someone but the truth is I do. It's just that it isn't obvious and I don't want them to know that every single minute of the day I'm looking for someone to love and to share my life with (only in my mind). Thank God, at least nobody reads what am I thinking or else she/he might think that I'm truly desperate. (waahhh!)

Peers and friends think that I'm tough coz I can go out alone, no dating, no flirts and always stay at home watching movies and Korean/Taiwan drama. Hey, I always brag about my interests are not boring, enjoyable and thrifty. I don't think they knew me at all coz I'm super great pretentious. Yeah, pretending that I don't need a guy who will stand by me and spend my whole life with him. Dear, if they only knew that every single cold night I'm dreaming that this unknown guy would come and rescue me from my misery. If they only knew that I wish I can share all my fears, my sadness, my happy moments, my funny times, my sweet thoughts, my weird ideas, senseless words, silly opinion to this unknown guy of mine. Does it sound really hopeless?

Did you know that? (This is trivia). Did you know that I always think that I always dream of all the Korean/Taiwan drama would be somewhat the same with my love story? Geeezzz, I know it is not that simple as living my life is very complicated. Things always come the way I don't want it but still I have to cope up with it no matter how painful or hard it is. Come to think of it, living a life the way we want is enjoyable and makes us treasure our fulfilled dreams.

Did you know that… being single in my thirty years, I learned many things.

One, betrayal from your loved ones is the most painful wound you've ever experienced in your life. It feels like you can't bear it nevertheless you have to endure it. Two, forgiving is love's toughest work, and love's biggest risk. To forgive is to dance to the beat of God's forgiving heart. To forgive is to set a prisoner free and discover that the prisoner was you. (That's what I learned from God's Daily Bread and from my everyday struggling for life). Three, no matter how many times you fall, be brave enough to rise even if it is you alone. Don't think false hopes that there is someone who will save you from it wishing he is your shining armor. Four, don't be sad, don't get mad, just enjoy every moment of being single, who knows, you may not experience the things you are doing now if you have significant others. Five, trust and respect can be earned. It isn't easy to give to one another. It is a process that everyone has to go through before you learn to trust and respect yourself and others. Six, it's okay if you always do mistakes in your life but remember not to do the same mistake. Because that only means, you never grow and never learn from it. Seven, don't lose faith and hope in finding your true love even if it takes forever, it's worth waiting because that is your true and lasting love that will make you happy the most. Eight, cherish every moment you have with your family, friends and colleagues. Don’t wait for another day to come, or a week, or a month, or a year. Just enjoy every single moment with them. . You might regret it in the future if you didn't make your most effort.